I have been asked several times through the years, especially recently, “Mrs. Joseph Wood, is there a story behind the bird?”
Yes, for me there is.
I’d like to share that story with you, if you have time to listen.
I’ve shared a bit about who I am over on the About Me page, but I’m not sure it gives the whole story. People often write me notes or make comments about how “perfect” my life is. People with questions like, “How do you raise such great kids?” or ”I wish my husband would love me like that”. Ladies there’s a story behind that cute bird… and there’s a story behind what you see in me too! Let me explain.
Matthew 10: 29-33 says, “Are not two sparrows sold for a farthing? And one of them shall not fall on the ground without your Father. But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows. Whosoever therefore shall confess me before men, him will I confess also before my Father which is in heaven. But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven.”
The bird here at A Moment with MOM, just like the ones that are scattered throughout my home, serve as a reminder to me. They remind me that I once was someone others would have thought had little to no value. I was a mess. I grew up in a Christian home, I had participated in all the church activities, memorized 300 passages of Scripture each year, but still had no personal relationship with Christ.
I remember the multiple times I “gave” my life to God, but always closed the prayer with “You can have all of me except this one part”. It wasn’t until years later, one child born out of wedlock, living with another man (who was an unbeliever) that a woman from my son’s daycare asked me if I wanted to go to church with her. I still don’t know why I said yes except that Love was calling me. I went to church with her that night. I remember praying, “Lord my life is a mess. I don’t know what you would want with it, but if you still want me here I am!” I really didn’t know if He would want me. I didn’t understand the real meaning of how He died for me while I was yet a sinner!
The path I had traveled was unspeakable. My life was filled with pain, money, vanity, drugs, loneliness (in the midst of the masses), and more pain.
For me, I could see where I was: the mess made by my own hands, the relationships that were broken, the lies, the hopelessness and wonder, “Was there any value in me at all?”
When Jesus said, “Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows.” Was he really talking about ME or was He talking about all of YOU? Did He really see me with value?
I prayed for some time about that. I questioned how I could know that God would love me and accept me as His own, to call ME His Child even after all I had done. I talked to people I trusted would have the answers… and they didn’t. I went home more times than I can remember questioning if this idea of “faith” was worth my time or attention. I didn’t want all of the “emotions” of it all. I wanted the simple facts.
I wanted to know three things:
First, Was God True?
Second, Could I believe what He said?
Third, How would I live differently if I believed that it was True?
Have you ever asked these questions? These were questions I had to ask and I had to get answers for myself. It was a process and took time of study. I had to let go of my notions about who God was and just accept Him for who He said he was. As I grew to understand God, he used the sparrow as a reminder to me that God finds value in me. Just the way I am, He wants me. It’s not up to me to change into something He can use. It’s up to HIM to mold me into something He can use.
There have been so many opportunities for me to feel not “worthy” enough. And truth is, I’m not worthy! I am probably the worst of all Sinners. I think that is what motivates me to wake up everyday to serve Him… “I want to live passionately for a God who saves the worst of Sinners!”
I feel like Psalm 126 could sum up my life.
When the Lord turned again the captivity of Zion, we were like them that dream.
Then was our mouth filled with laughter, and our tongue with singing: then said they among the heathen, The Lord hath done great things for them.
The Lord hath done great things for us; whereof we are glad.
Turn again our captivity, O Lord, as the streams in the south.
They that sow in tears shall reap in joy.
He that goeth forth and weepeth, bearing precious seed, shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him.
Through the years I have set up “reminders” in my home of Truths that God was teaching me. For a long time my husband had to put up with the empty fruit ladder that sat in my entry way. He would ask me, “Tell me again why this ladder is here?” Each time I would tell him, “It’s to remind me that while I may have wrestled with God, while I may have a “limp” the rest of my life, I do have my blessing!”
When my Joe asks me why I scatter splashes of red throughout my home he hears, “Red is my daddy’s favorite color. I love to decorate with it as a reminder to me of his love. Because of his example of love, I am reminded to show the same resolve as I love my family.”
So when someone says, “What’s the story behind the bird?” I have to share. It’s a reminder to me that when I felt I was of no value, God was there to remind me that in His eyes I was worth dying for!
As you travel this site and visit us often, it is my hope that you will be reminded that HE loves YOU too.. not just me, but YOU!!
“Fear ye not therefore, ye are of more value than many sparrows.”
If you do not yet know the Saving Grace and Love of Jesus Christ, I would love to share more with you. Please write me. Let’s talk. Let’s get your questions answered and start living a life that allows God to show Himself strong in the weakest of vessels!
All for His Glory!
Mrs. Joseph Wood